Endless Sadness

I am sad and crying again :(. I am not happy with my life right now. I know, my special someone has nothing to do with my situation right now. But she is the reason why I am feeling so alone again. I want to forget her, but damn it! I can't! I want to enjoy my life to the fullest but there's this part of my heart that still empty and feeling soooo lonely! I tried to ignore such feeling several times, but it keeps on coming back! Hey world! help me! I want a normal and happy life!
agony79 agony79
26-30, F
2 Responses Jul 15, 2010

I hope sharing my story to you would make you feel better and have hope.<br />
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A year ago tonight, I broke up with the guy I`m crazy about. We had plans, we had so many dreams together and exactly a year ago tonight, he just told me he couldn`t think about family and getting married at the moment. I wasn`t pressuring him. I just wanted him to meet my parents who are coming over since we had been together for a while. Right there and then, I realized that he was never serious with any of his promises and the 'future' that he was building with me was just an illusion. It seemed to be the darkest day of my life but I have gotten over it!<br />
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Believe me, right now, nothing may not make any sense but someone will walk into your life to make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else. It`s true. I told that to myself last year when I broke up with my ex.<br />
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Now, I met a very incredible guy. Although he is so far away from me now (he is studying in Switzerland), I`m still very happy.<br />
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I`m sure YOU WILL BE HAPPY. But right now, feel free to express yourself and hurts. You will find lots of nice people here to listen to you and give you support!<br />
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God bless :)

Time Time Time....... Just dont be so hard on yourself and allow yourself to feel whatever it youre feeling and dont fight your circumstances... just give it time.... time changes everything.