Hard Pattern To Break Out Of

I think it's going to remain that way for some time, too.  I take a chance at finding love now and again, but it never seems to be the right time, or the right move.  I'm left feeling . . . foolish.  So I stick it back in its bottle and save it for another day.  My only consolation is that it's going to be good vintage when it's finally time to be served.
UnderEli UnderEli
46-50, M
2 Responses Aug 13, 2010

Yep. I hear you on this. And it's harder after each rejection. It's hard to see couples out together, holding hands, kissing. And knowing that I've never experienced any of that. It's not something that gets better the longer it goes on. I'm not happy alone. Never have been. And it really just adds to the feeling of rejection when someone says that I should be happy to be alone (and it's usually said by someone who isn't alone .. so if they think being alone is OK, why don't they end their relationship and prove it?). <br />
Unlike UnderEli and missmarlboro, I just don't have the hope there anymore. Just need some solid, concrete sign to show that there IS something to hope for. That there is someone out there ...

I feel ya. It seems to be that way for me too. And it gets harder after each rejection to think that there's someone out there for me. Each time I think, "Maybe some people are meant to be alone." But that will make it that much sweeter when I find someone for me. I suppose. I wish you the best.