Haven't had a reliable friend in 7 years. Couldn't relate to any other person for 4. I feel like I have to be different from everyone else, but want company. Whenever I try to be like others, I get so bored, its unbearable. I start moving my hands in weird ways to fight the boredom, so people make fun of me, so i dont see the point. I hate it when people ignore me. I haven't been criticized in 5 years on anything, so I have a very weak sense of right from wrong, and I'm not sure if I exist.