I am 53 years old. I am so deeply lonely inside. I am great at masking my true feelings and even my girlfriend does not know how I feel inside. I have no friends other than that. I suffered extreme abuse as a child from two older brothers and that has followed me into adulthood and then some. Even though I have had counselling that kind of abuse never leaves you and haunts the back of your memory. At times it almost cripples me. I have trouble relating to males and cannot make male friends due to trust issues. Does any one else have this difficulty. I would like to hear how you handle it.