I Now Understand Despair
in the past, i always thought that suicide is a stupid escape people take who can't stand their lives any more. but i realized, when there's nothing to live for, when there's no purpose in what i am doing, when i don't have motivation for anything, when i realized that life is simply a monotonous cycle, suicide becomes a considerable option. i messed up my relationships with my loved ones, i'm too weak to overcome my limitations, and i don't see myself doing anything in the future. it's really frustrating when i have no idea what i want in life.