I Am Alone And Lonely

I not sure where to start I was in a long term relationship for eight in a half years.
The relationship wasn't an easy one so I decided the best thing to do is for us to
our seperate ways. I decide that I would take at least a year for just myself no
dating no nothing just take some time for myself. But somehow that year turned
into two years then four years now I am at eight. I have been alone for along time.
You see I have a lung disease called Sarcoidosis and I started thinking that I don't
have anything to offer a man. Men these days want a woman with a perfect shape
and young. I live in the real world that's not me. I figure no guy would want to be with
being medically what do I have to offer. Sometimes I feel so numb on the inside I know
that I am a good woman and that I have a good heart. I realize I will never know what it
it feels like to be in love or to have someone to love me. It hard not being held and going
through life alone.I find myseld hiding from life I have become a loner. How is possible
for someone to feel so empty inside..