Valentine's Day Is In Two Days...

And it upsets me because I'm going to be alone.
I don't care if it's a juvenile thought, I want what others seem capable of obtaining-a genuine connection with another person that extends beyond the boundaries of friendship.
My "taken" circles of acquaintance don't understand my feelings-because they can have meaningful relationships and not think twice about it, should they choose not to burden themselves with negative thoughts. They're in their depressingly optimistic relationship-fog right now, unless they're fighting with their significant other. Even then, at least they have someone to argue with.
Well, I'm not like them. I'm not like you.
My own thoughts spin me into circles, why should I dare wish the unfortunate circumstance that is myself upon someone else?
Because I want to draw a card for them, or pick them some freaking flowers, or take them somewhere awesome, or curl up on the couch watching movies we both like. I want to give and receive affection to someone who genuinely feels the same way about me.
I don't want to be alone, not for this Valentine's Day or any of the others to come...):
spacehyena spacehyena
18-21, F
2 Responses Feb 12, 2012

yes you are so young. I used to heard that all the time but trust me you will find your special one.<br />
by the way, I have neither received or given anything on Valentines Day , it's just hype, a day for the commercials to make a lot of our hard earned money. I'll be your Valentine this year.

I agree, why should we only celebrate love for one day a year when really it should be on our agenda 24/7, 365? And what makes it hard is I've had significant others on Valentine's days prior, so the loneliness just kind of...feels deeper, I guess. I don't think it's a hype, I like that some people who really like each other can use it as an excuse to do cute things for each other. I just wish I could have that.

Agreed straight back at you. Although it's not only cards, people are pressurised into buying pressies too, oh and dinner for two, sorry forgot the flowers.... the list goes on &amp; on......
(sound like a bit of a miser don't I - lol, I'm not really :)

read some of your other stories as to try help with this one but think you need to concentrate on friendships at present,you are still young so have time and hope this doesn't sound crazy but think you might be high intelligent asberghers syndrome or something similar might be worth checking out

Well, I tend to keep all of my acquaintances at a distance from myself. I know I have time, but it would be nice to have someone to give the affection that I know I have, to. I have a few issues, but I've never even considered asperger's. I'm not sure if I have any of the symptoms or anything. I think I'm just really lonely and bipolar and antisocial, haha.