I Am Lonely

Story Of My Life

By: LaDefense

Written on March 2nd, 2012

I used to keep wondering where it all went wrong. Until about five years ago in high school , I was this relaxed, arrogant, impulsive bully with a lot of friends. Now I'm this lonely, stressed, anti-social freak university graduate with zero close friends and flirting with unemployment and bankruptcy. I used to keep wondering that, but not any more.

Whatever I'd done in the past, I'm over it. The big question now, is how to be 'normal' again. At times, I feel like a ghost. I go about my daily life and nobody cares in slightest what I did or how I felt. Yeah well, I suppose the night is darkest just before the dawn.

It's simple - I want friends. Someone whom I can write to, keep in touch with, share stuff. Something that I can look forward to after a long day. I know for sure ,that this is the best solution.

I wonder if anyone else feels like this? If so, add me to your circles. Let's do this together.

By: LaDefense

Age: 22-25 , Male

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12 responses

Thatsmystyle77

Yeah.. finding friends "is" the sure way to get out of that.. :)

Apr 29, 2012
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Wizanger

Being a ghost you should understand this comment: I have stood at a cash register and had people to step in front of me, as if I weren't even there.

The best thing to be said for being a ghost is, no one will notice that you completely failed at life. For 30 years now, I have been largely ignored. If I offer a solution to a problem, my wife will seek someone elses advice, then act as though I never offered the same solution.

My children and siblings hate me, I worked until I became disabled, making over $200,000 a year. Most recently, my oldest daughter stated on Facebook, that I have never worked a day in my life and my own brother openly claims the same thing. I drove a truck for 17 years, and own my own remodeling company until last year, I have never been unemployed, but it seems that everyone thinks I have.

Just so you know, I SEE YOU, I ACKNOWLEDGE YOUR EXISTENCE, I BELIEVE YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE.

Mar 12, 2012
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Lighthousegirl

I m not important to anyone.

Mar 3, 2012
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- LaDefense
  What about your family?
  
  Mar 5, 2012
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aloneinlondon

I am a ghost too

I am nobody's priority and nobody ever thinks of me

Everyone has their own circles but none of them include me

I try so hard - I do all I can to keep in touch. I call and text people all the time asking what they're up to etc. .. reminding them that I exist. But it gets me nowhere. :(

Mar 3, 2012
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- LaDefense
  Been there. Well it's not like my 'friends' don't want me with them, I'm the problem. It just feels awkward hanging out with them, don't know why.
  
  Mar 5, 2012
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heywhatsthatguydoing

My situation is a little different from yours, but at the same time a lot of what you wrote really relates to me. Especially the part about feeling like a ghost. It's weird, I'm out in public every single day, and yet at the end of the day I vanish from everyone's consciousness. It's like I'm the sound a tree makes, I only exist if someone's there.

Mar 3, 2012
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- LaDefense
  Hang in there. This phase will end soon i am sure of it.
  
  Mar 5, 2012
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Sid1492

what makes you "freaky"??

Mar 3, 2012
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- LaDefense
  Well its not like I'm unattractive or unpleasant to be around, A few people have even told me I make for a good company and am a really good listener. But, i'd rather be the talker
  
  Mar 5, 2012
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- Sid1492
  i was hoping for an unsettling story of debauchery. maybe some sordid acts of violence. but yeah, now that i get your meaning, i understand and often feel the same.
  thanks for the story, XOXO
  
  Mar 5, 2012
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dunwell321

what can i say im widowed write to me i wil reply bye dave i live n thailand im english

Mar 2, 2012
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