I really don't want a pity party for myself. I don't feel like that is something that I need. However, I am lonely and I think about it all the time. I console myself with the frienships I have and also with my family, but I find myself thinking that I will never be in a romantic relationship. I am not really comfortable with myself physically or mentally at the moment and that probably contributes to these feelings. I tell myself that no one will ever be attracted to me and that I should just give up on that part of my life. Then again I know that all I really want is someone to love me. I am not really close to anyone, friends or family, and there is nothing even remotely romantic on the horizon for me. Why do I think that being in a relationship will fix everything? Maybe I just want someone to be mine.