Alone In This World

As I sit here writing this, the only thoughts racing through my mind are the feelings of emptiness and loneliness that invade me.  No matter how hard I try, I never seem to escape them.  My phone never rings, nobody ever seems to want to be around me.  Sometimes I think that people only spend time with me as a last resort, because theres no one else to pass the time with.  Even then, those times are rare.  I feel so distant from the world, wondering what other people spend their time doing.  And yet everyone seems to think that I have it all, a great job, a whole lot to be thankful for but none of them know the truth.  Its like being told you have everything when you're holding nothing in your hands.....I can't stand the pain.........I just want it to go away......oh God please take it away!
Haubrek Haubrek
26-30, M
5 Responses Apr 15, 2007

I am so sorry you feel that way. I feel so very lonely. I know how the pain feels. I have family yet I feel nobody wants me there. Sometimes I feel as though I must be the saddest person in the world. Again, I feel for you. If you wish to talk please feel free to email me...

Yes, me too. Very lonely, bored etc. <br />
Depressed. Just want to have a little healthy fun with friends that enjoy the same things. I hate to burden the few people I have in my life. They are happy, busy etc. They just don't understand that sometimes I just need them. I keep trying to figure it out. What am I missing. How do I become happy.<br />
Cassandra

I hear that. I hate when people think you've got it all together...that's part of what makes me so lonely, you know? It's hard to have to convince people you're miserable when you don't want to be miserable to begin with and you don't want to burden them...ugh, I hate it all. <br />
But I understand being lonely. That's me...right now.

Yup, that is what I do. I go to school, work and home. I am really pissed at myself for not taking initiative to do more. That is why I want to join the USMC or the Army. I need to get out of the environment I am in. So what if I get behind in school. hahaha

I feel the exact same feelings right now. My phone rarely ever rings either and I feel so alone. It is becoming unbearable. All my friends are married and always busy and I have been single now for 5 months. I don't know what to do with myself. I just work and come home and I don't go out.