LonelyI'm 18, turning 19 in a few months and really dreading it. To think these supposed to be the best years of my life…I feel like I’ve wasted my entire youth. For the past 7 years I can say that I have not had a single friend. I’ll never know what it’s like to have a best friend. They say as we get older, making friends becomes much harder.
I have forgotten what it’s like to have a friend; I just want someone I can share my thoughts with and be myself. At school, I sit alone during lunch or breaks and wait, just wait for it to end so I can go home. As sad as it sounds, the internet is my only escape from the reality of my loneliness. I have social anxiety disorder, it all started after elementary school, I was overweight and had hyperhidrosis. I have lost a lot of weight (down to my last 25 pounds), but I still am the same old miserable person. I wish someone would just talk to me, but the thing is, I really wouldn’t know how to carry a conversation with another human being.
danibarna 18-21, F 2 Responses 0 Jun 16, 2012