I Want Friends And A LifeI am 14, I live in Washington, D.C. I will be starting high school in the fall, A lot of the kids that I just graduated with will be going to the same school. All of them are excited to be going to the same school, but I'm not really that excited because none of them are my friends, we might talk a little, but that's it. I don't have friends because I have been rejected so many times I just don't even try. I had a breakdown at school and nearly killed myself in the girls bathroom while an associate was standing there, I broke the mirror and tried to slit my wrist with the glass, but they slapped it out of my hand. I am not smart, I had gotten put out of math class everyday literally and I spent a lot of time in detention. I never had gotten an award at school not for most improved, honor role, student of the month, or student of year, even when I did clean up my act and did all of my homework and classwork.
My mother told me today that "you are pathetic", "you don't have any friends", and "you shouldn't have a phone because you never get calls, texts, or any invites to anywhere". I am the youngest of 8 children. all of my brothers and sisters have many friends I don't have one and they make fun of me for it. Their friends come over and do normal friend stuff. They go out with their friends and go to the movies, carnival, or parties, but I just stay home and cry and wish that I had that life. They also have either bought a girl or boy home to introduce them as their girlfriend or boyfriend, I never had a boyfriend because... well I don't know why.
I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE ANYMORE.
babylyfe1998 13-15, F 5 Responses 2 Jul 15, 2012