I Am Lonely

My Heart Is Forever Broken. Shattered Into Pieces.

By: MrSandvich

Written on August 7th, 2012

Last night, my crush said a long distance relationship isn't going to work out. She's all the way in the US, and I'm here in Europe, in the Netherlands. I love her so much, what I feel for her, I've never felt before ever in my life. She's the world to me, she's the most amazing girl ever. But that one moment last night. The words "It's not going to work out" broke my heart. I cried for hours and hours, until I fell asleep in bed. I had to get up at 7am just now, because I couldn't sleep any more.

I promised myself that once I'm done with highschool, I'll get all my money together, and get my *** over to the United States where she is. I want to hold her, and tell her that it still worked out. Sadly, It'll be another year of sadness and pain until I can... As fast as my heart was stolen, as fast it was broken. I cry as I'm typing this. It's beginning to become a little bit too much. This feeling of pain, and loneliness is unbearable.

I cut myself earlier even though I promised her not to, to help make me feel better. The happiness didn't last long sadly. It slowly faded away again, and then I feel sad again. I miss her so much. I will have to wait until she gets home. I want to talk to her, I need to talk to her. To fix this. I'll die without her.

By: MrSandvich

Age: 16-17 , Male

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5 responses

cbunique

dont say you cant let her go it only makes it harder. I know how you feel ive been there i was in love with him for 7 years and just hearing those words shattered my heart i cried every night. then i realized that if he wants to move on i can never change his feelings or mine but i can wait to find someone else who loves me the way i wanted him to love me. it never makes it better to hold on 7 years later i still love him always will but i know its time to let go and move on

Aug 7, 2012
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smileyfaces84

i will tell you what I wish some one had told me when i was hard broken. Cry if you have to to but not too long. There will be pain but life has to go on and you are young. i cant promise you that you wont get hurt again coz in life there are no guarantees, just like you cant be so sure this person was the one going to make you happy. Let it Go you cant live your live in a pity party, you might miss the chance to meet a better person. Its alright dont waste time mourning, its dead bury it. i know its hard but one of these days you will meet the person who will make you happy. Smile more even if hurts, go out celebrate the time you had with this person and be grateful for the opportunity, let possibility be your inspiration. God bless you

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- MrSandvich
  I can't let her go, I just can't. She's constantly in my mind, and there's nothing I can do about it.
  
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- smileyfaces84
  Yes you can. Please remember that DIFFICULT IS NOT IMPOSSIBLE. And you can achieve anything. you are wonderfully made.You are more than a conqueror. You are strong. I know you don't feel like it know but hang on, one day it will all make sense but only u can decide today is a new beginning. And you will let go maybe not today tomorrow or maybe even next year but you shall take the first step now
  
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KittyInBlueJeans

If u worry about it to much its not going to get u far but everything will work out trust me i promise

Aug 7, 2012
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