Universe, Prove Me Wrong? Please?Am I supposed to be alone all my life?
I go out everyday, see people in love, in relationships some deserve to be in them, and some are just in them for the sake of not being called 'single'.
They say they're in love. Sometimes I think do they even know what it means. If they don't work out, they say they hate each other? How can you hate them and so easily forget them if you loved them?
I am not good-looking, I'm not gonna be rich because I'll probably be doing some job that helps other people, not a rich-behind-the-desk job. I'll be out there, helping.
I can't flirt, I'm not a smooth talker or anything. I'm funny, and I'm truly happy only when I'm doing two things-playing football or helping someone.
Tell me, don't I deserve to be loved?
There are some people who're never single, some who think that this is a game.
Some, who treat their partners like crap, and cheat on them, yet they always find someone for themselves.
Criminals, thugs, rapists, bullies, fraudsters..they all have someone. Is having a good heart a bad thing now?
I always thought being someone who thought about others first and who literally feels hurt when he sees the problems of the world and wants to help, someone with a good heart would matter for something.
I guess I was stupid to think that someone might actually like me when they knew what kind of person am I.
I try to console myself, maybe I was born for something else, a revolution perhaps(we know we need one) or just for helping others..Hey batman was alone right? Some of the greatest heroes were alone right?
Seems like I'm bound to walk alone, touching lives, a bright spot in someone's life for some time, then forgotten.
One of my friend said :'Dude, you deserve to be with someone. You're a great guy, help everyone and the most cheerful person I know then I see people like those(pointing to some boys) get the girls. I just joked,'Batman doesn't have the luxury of love.'
another said-It'll be really hard for you to find someone, but when you do, you two'd be awesome together.
He doesn't even know about the real me, only ep does.
I see these stories and confessions about love, and shiver inside every time.
I guess this is my greatest fear, living my life to the fullest, being the best person I could be, helping everyone, cheering everyone up while being all alone. I'll be happy yes, because the things I do are fulfilling. Everyday I'm trying to accept that I'll die alone.
But once a while, while I'm joking with my friends or helping someone, and I see someone holding hands or hear someone telling about their love lives, I'll feel terrible inside, then I'll just say to myself, I got people to help, I don't have the luxury of love.
Thanks for reading, if you need help, I'm readytohelpyou.
deleted 26-30 3 Responses 5 Aug 30, 2012