Something's Gotta Give

I've been on my own for five years since separating from my husband.  I stupidly thought it would be easy to meet someone else, I thought I deserved it, my relationship wasn't working, I had done something about it so I would meet someone new.  Not so.  I have met loads of guys but no-one suits. Either I like them and they don't like me or vice versa.  Still I have made some good friends and had some wicked hilarious evenings with my good mates.  But I still feel so lonely.  It is a constant pain, a feeling of being grief stricken that I can't let out, that I have to deal with every day.  I have had a bad back and neck for over a year, I have been to the osteopath but it's still there.  I think it is the grief of being alone that I am carrying in my body that is making me ill.

 

But we must keep going.  Every day is a new chance.  Even though I feel depressed most days maybe one day something will change.  The answer I know is to get out and make a good life for myself. Not always so easy though.  But to anyone feeling lonely I would say just try to make a small change here and there.  Something has to give in the end, doesn't it?

 

Wonderkid Wonderkid
51-55, F
1 Response May 3, 2007

I have not been separated that long but I agree with you. Every day is a new chance. We have to take it one day at a time and not give up or give in to desperation or depression. There is hope. Hope that something good will come from this. Its just a question of when. I believe we go through these phases of our lives for a reason, we just don't what's lying ahead of us. We have to be patient even though that not our nature. Good luck!