I Did It To Myself. (please At Least Read The End Of This If You Dont Care About The Rest. A Youtube Video You All Should Watch.)I met a boy this summer, a man I should say (he's 22). Im 18 and of course I fell head over heels for him. He's really an amazing person, but since his school started again he's too busy even to text me. It seriously feels like he died or something, like he's comepletely gone. I've been texting him and he wont reply. He finally confessed that he was ignoring me so he could get stuff done. Ive been really hurt in the last few weeks and Ive felt the need to smoke more. Anyways, the real problem is that I really only hung out with him all summer. Him and his friends. So now that we're done I have nothing left to turn to. Im alone all day except when Im at work and Ive been sleeping a lot. I want to sleep all the time. Its a time waster and I like to dream. I dont have a good relationship with my parents either which doesnt help. We fight a lot and Im just really depressed guys. :( I want to meet new people. Ive thought about just moving away somewhere else and making myself go out and talk to people and finds friends to be myself around but idk where to start. I am going to join some yoga classes though and start volunteering at the animal shelter in town.
This man Ive been talking about did show me a multitude of wonderful things and Ive learnt a lot from him as well. Ill always be thankful for that. theres a poem that every person on this site should hear. Go on youtude and type in "How to be alone" by tanya davis. This poem changed my perspective on myself as an individual greatly.
I hope we can all stop being lonely.
janealoneontheplain 18-21, F 8 Responses 6 Sep 14, 2012