I Am Lonely

Lost My Best Friend

By: pureheart9

Written on September 17th, 2012

My best friend who I love so very dearly a few days ago basically called off the friendship. She said that she's tired of taking care of me and tired of worrying about things that she does because they're going to hurt me. So, she decided to have sex with the guy that I really like. It all sounds so trivial and high school drama but it's intensely personal and meaningful to me.

I don't know how to go on from here, really ..... she's been my best friend for years. She's the most important person in the world to me and she just told me that she's tired of me.

I'm so, so lonely.

By: pureheart9

Age: 18-21 , Female

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4 responses

JAZ1792

I know how you feel , I lost my only friend that way too., years ago. Whoever that friend is she made a mistake because true friends stick together through thick & thin. Idk you but i know you are the trustworthy & faithful one & that anyone would be lucky to know you & be your friend

Sep 21, 2012
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abcgum64

I'm sorry to hear that happened... I don't understand why people wouldn't at least talk about it with the other person first before actually making a quick move like that!
We are all here for you, and if you need anything I'd be happy to listen! :)

Sep 19, 2012
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gmckdude711

I went through a comparable frustration with a girl named Sierra in late 2004. I was more invested in my friendship with her than the average HS friendship. It took me several weeks, into early 2005 to realize that I can't consider her a friend anymore. I hated it because in the months prior, she had a sister that was 8 at the time that took a liking to me.
I wound up being able to see wasn't exactly friendly towards me (benefit of hindsight) in several other situations prior to that.
Fast forward to May 2007 and the reality of HS graduation and being distant from my many other HS friends caught up to me. I've spent the majority of my time since battling depression and loneliness. I still struggle with the need to find a support system of people close to me in age.

Sep 17, 2012
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pureheart9

also- i'm not standing up for myself. i know that if i stand up for myself and yell and scream at her, our friendship will be over. it means too much to me to be able to do that. but i also know that maybe it's best if the friendship ends. i'm having such a hard time facing that reality. i don't know how to act around her--and she's my roomate right now, too, so there's forced interaction.
at night it's the hardest. i just want to cry from all of the love that we have for each other and , well, i guess it's gone..

Sep 17, 2012
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