I Admit ItI am lonely
so very lonely in fact that i often lay awake ake at night crying, wishing for someone to hold me as i fall asleep at night.
Im 19 and still a virgin
I was waiting for someone special, who deserved to take my virginity
I thought i found him, he gave me butteflies, made me feel more alive than ive ever felt in my life.
I fell so hard, but he was always drinking and i couldn't let him take my virginity and then not remember it in the morning
turns out he didnt give a **** about me anyway
every man i meet causes me to lose hope. Somedays i think i should just get it over with and **** some stranger.
I've had many opportunities to do that, but iv'e turned down every one.
but with every passing moment my heart grows colder. I cant explain why i want someone in my ife so much.
I feel weak.. i know i shoudn't need someone else to be happy, i should find happiness on my own.
i am ashamed of my intense need for companionship.
im waiting for a prince, but getting nothing but frogs