I Admit It

I am lonely

so very lonely in fact that i often lay awake ake at night crying, wishing for someone to hold me as i fall asleep at night.

Im 19 and still a virgin

I was waiting for someone special, who deserved to take my virginity

I thought i found him, he gave me butteflies, made me feel more alive than ive ever felt in my life.

I fell so hard, but he was always drinking and i couldn't let him take my virginity and then not remember it in the morning

turns out he didnt give a **** about me anyway

every man i meet causes me to lose hope. Somedays i think i should just get it over with and **** some stranger.

I've had many opportunities to do that, but iv'e turned down every one.

but with every passing moment my heart grows colder. I cant explain why i want someone in my ife so much.

I feel weak.. i know i shoudn't need someone else to be happy, i should find happiness on my own.

i am ashamed of my intense need for companionship.

im waiting for a prince, but getting nothing but frogs
NeverBeenKissed93 NeverBeenKissed93
22-25, F
1 Response Sep 23, 2012

you will fine someone but some frog might be a prince if you look at them on the inside .