to feel this lonely. Like there will never be someone that can truly accept me for who I am and what I want. Why does it have to be this way? Why do I always fall for the wrong person? I just had so many dreams and thoughts of how my life would be none of which even came close to where I am now. I am lost and in a dark place. I don't know if I will ever be able to have what I want so I know I need to learn to live as I am now. It is much harder than I thought it was at the time but slowly I am learning how to cope with the loneliness and find myself. I cherish my privacy and have realized that I am better now although it is still hard I do enjoy my alone time now. I can do things I wasn't able to before. I can live without answering to anyone or worrying that I am not be the best person in the relationship. I am learning to be happy again all by myself.