Lonely

I know how you feel, but it's nothing to do with you, seriously. When other people's lives are going well, they forget the bad times, including the friends who helped them along the way. They're not real friends, let's face it. I'm not exactly in 'a good place' in my life at the moment either and it's really sorted out my real friends from the ones who aren't there in 'my hour of need'....

I once had a friend (a true one!) who said different friends fulfill different needs in your life, and I think he was right. So don't be too angry with the friends who aren't there for you. Just don't make yourself as available when they come crying. Help them, by all means but not to the exclusion of your own needs and your own life.

It really shows you shouldn't depend upon other people to make you at peace but it's hard to do, I know.

And by the way, I had a mother who was a total **** at times (referring to your question). Having a hard time from your mother is the ultimate rejection.....

I'm in the EXACT same boat! I've always and always will be there at a drop of a hat for them in any situation. Now, every time I need someone, it's as though I've suddenly become invisible...and alone.

I agree, Even friends that I have known over ten years never call or text. It always seems that when they call or text they need something but never just to talk. Its like I am the one that has to do all the calling and texting to initiate the conversation. I am here for those who would like to stop this trend from others to make a difference.

same here no nothing .. everyday is the same .... :') i feel what you feel . true friends ? none ... my so called "friends" just come and meet me when they need help , and for sure i'm there for them .... whenever they're lack of money ... i'll help them .. just because i remember the name 'FRIENDS' but let's take a look now , we got nothing .... am i right ?

I'm sure it isn't you; people come and go in our lives but true "friends" stay.

**** ppl

I feel the exact same way often times, I try, I really do, but most people just seem to write me off or keep me around as some kind of last resort. I don't know what it is.. I try, I care, but it seems hardly anyone else does at all. Even on here, a lot of people act like they want to be friends and socialize, but most of the time after I add them and try to talk to them it sure as hell doesn't seem that way. Whether it's in life or online, it's surprisingly difficult just to find someone I can talk to. I'm always stuck wondering whether it's their fault or mine, I'm pretty damn sure it's not my own fault, but the slight fear of the possibility is always there.

Sometimes I wonder the exact same thing.

As the others have said. There's no judgement from people on here.
You'll find many other people in simillar situations, and it makes you feel better to know you're not alone.
We are all here to support each other :)

You are not repulsive. People are just self centered and when you go out of your way for anyone to be nice to them, all they do, is take you for granted. When someone takes you for granted, its easy to forget to make an effort to talk to you. I hope being here, sharing some of your thoughts and feelings with willing listeners gives you some sense of belonging somewhere.

here is a place where there are no stares, and plenty to talk too.

Well you will find many people on EP that want to chat w/you and want to get to know you.I hope you connect with a lot of people.Get on here and talk to people and let them get to know you ,it will help.I am sorry btw how lonely you are.Hang in there please.