I Am Tired From Running Away From Loneliness

For most of my life I have been running as fast as possible to get away from loneliness. I have dodged it, hidden from it...going to various extremes just to keep loneliness at bay. I married a man I liked, but wasn't in love with to get away from loneliness.

I have filled my emptiness up with others- others who weren't good for me, but at least I wasn't empty and alone. Bad decision have been made- even risky decsions made to keep loneliness' cold arms from wrapping around me.

I am worn out from this long chase and have to give in to loneliness and finally figure out what is so bad about me being alone with me.
Halla789 Halla789
41-45, F
Nov 25, 2012