There Is No Love In This City

I'm the black sheep in my family because of my past use of alcohol and drugs, but now I'm 3 years sober and still my family doesn't want anything to do with me. I take full responsibility for my past and understand that I messed up big time. I went to prison two times because of my decisions under the influance of alcohol and drugs. I'm so ashamed of my past that its very difficult to be reminded of it every time I'm around my family. I also have not worked for almost a year because of my past when I was useing I stoled to feed my habit and I got caught and because I have a past with my employer they will not help me in anyway. I come to a very terrible time in my life cause if I don't get a job by the new year I will be homeless as well. So when I need someone's help so bad they have all turned there backs on me. I realize I did some things that I would never do sober if it wasn't that I was so powerless.over alcohol and drugs. This holiday season is the worst it has ever been in the 52 years that I have been alive. I would like.to speak.for.all in the same situation that " im still only human and that everyone has a right to be wrong but please show.a little understanding that I have feelings and need some.love to. I must continue to be strong and walk by faith and not by sight. May all who read this be blessed. Marry Christmas Cleveland. C.N.
Itshopeless Itshopeless
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1 Response Dec 1, 2012

Have you tried AA/NA. Have you ever made amends to family and employers. I found AA imperfect but it definitely works. Walk with faith as your sight.