Lonely & Just Wanted To Share

Hi,

I feel really lonely, I feel like I dont have any close friends anymore. I feel left out and have no one to spend time with. I want someone to talk to and just be there with me. I have always had trouble expressing how I feel and have really hard time opening up to people. My friends have no idea that I feel this way most of the time. As a child, my parents have always told me I was a happy child but on the inside I knew I wasn't, so my whole life I've put up this wall and got really good at pretending to be happy on the outside, and no one knew that felt this way.

But I do have a boyfriend and he is really wonderful, I wish he could spend all his time with me but I know that is selfish and I dont want to be clingy. But sometimes I get jealous of him, he has a tight group of friends he can always call up and hang out with, I wish I had that. I asked him once if he had ever felt lonely and he said no. I wish I could never feel that way too.

There have been times where I wanted to get help with a therapist but I never end up going through with it or it is too expensive. But some days I just break down and cry or I loose to want to do anything and just want to stay in bed and sleep the day away. I will get irritated, frustrated and upset easily and sometimes without knowing a solid reason. I just want to get rid of the loneliness and be a little happier.

Thanks for listening.

- c

cupcakies cupcakies
22-25
1 Response Dec 1, 2012

I feel just the same way that you do. My boyfriend is great and has amazing friends and I am so jealous of that.
If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here to listen. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I hope that you can start opening up soon and finding people who you can allow to get close to your heart.