Am I Really Lonely?

I have people around me; friends and family.
Even though I have them I still feel like im by myself.
Am I too blind to take notice of whats in front of me? Its not that I don't want to be around them. Its just... idk how to explain it. I don't know how to explain this feeling. Even when I am hanging out on the inside i feel as if im alone and just feel like crying. How can I even begin to explain to them that i feel alone and these other feelings? I don't want them to feel bad at all.
BobaTea BobaTea
22-25, F
2 Responses Dec 10, 2012

Exactly how I feel! Like, I'd rather not hang out with "friends" because when I do, I feel left out, like I just can't connect with people for some reason and I can't figure out why! People just don't stick! So, I tend to avoid hang outs, which never happen anyway. I hate the feeling of being the third wheel.<br />
I once had the courage to tell my friend that I feel third wheel. After that, we never hung out again.<br />
And if I say I'm lonely, am I taking my boyfriend, classmates and family for granted?

Its like... we have people in our lives, we are grateful to have them but why does this feeling lingers over like a dark cloud? How can I tell them without being a debbie downer?

That's what friends and family are for,to rely on them.Tell someone that has a listening ear and a compassionate heart how you feel.You may be surprised how much support you receive.

Yes I'll try that with someone else. a person i use to be friends with i tried telling them and went off on me and told me i have nothing better to do, thats why im feeling that way.

Ok so that person wasn't the right person to tell things to.One thing I do know is when you connect w/someone online you can tell them anything.That is how most online relationships are.You don't see them face to face,no reason not to be honest and to share everything you want.Find an online friend,get to know them and become confidants for each other.It works trust me.

I will, thank you :)