Still Alone

I have friends, two to be exact, but I don't like either of them. I hang out with them at school but not after school like we used to do occasionally. I must be socially awkward, which I've been working on (and I thought I improved) but when I talked to a stranger (an older lady) at subway my friend said that my face was red! There was absolutely no reason to be embarrassed! I wish I could have more friends and I wish my efforts paid off. Like I tried so hard and I feel like everyone else made tons of friends this year (9th in high school) but I didn't! I'm stuck with the same friends I don't even like on most days. I hate being lonely and feeling like no one is there. Plus I have depression from pms I think so every month I get really depressed. It sucks. It's a vicious cycle being happy with life and then just miserable. I hate it
daydreamer27 daydreamer27
18-21, F
2 Responses Jan 9, 2013

Hello VeggieChik,Isn't it ironic how life can be beautiful one minute, and be completely ugly the next?<br />
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The reality is, life is beautiful. You're young. You have your whole life ahead of you. Friends will come and go. You'll lose some to gain some.<br />
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I've gone through what you went through, and am still going through it. It never ends. It's a cycle. You're going to have bad days, and you're going to have good days.If one thing is for sure, it's that life gets a lot better after your teen years.<br />
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I've always thought that people who claim that the teen years are the best years of your life should be hit in the head with a brick.When you're my age (18) you're still going to feel lonely at times, but it's not going to be like middle school or high-school where you're going to have to deal with ****** people every day.I just want you to know that you're not alone. <br />
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Those 'popular' kids are lonely in one way or the other too. They are also insecure. Some people are very good at hiding it but I think every single person on this earth is insecure and lonely in one way or the other.<br />
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A lot of times people aren't as happy as they claim to be when telling their happy tales. For many people, it's their coping mechanism they use to present the image of a happy individual. I know almost a dozen people who talk about all their friends and "wild times" while being extremely depressed. For a LOT of people, they are just selling you a commercial image of how happy they truly wish they were.<br />
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So I want you to keep your chin up, butter cup :)

Thank you for your comment, I've been learning that in life you can't have the good without the bad, but it's worth it. I'll try to stay positive :)

Sorry about my rambling thoughts I just need to get this out there