Two Days Ago

I feel more lonely now more than ever. Two days ago i overdosed.I didnt die but i know i could have.The psychiatrist at the emergency room wants me to do partial hospitalization when what i really want to do is die. But of course no one believes that.Now im in this stupid program for most of the day that is not going to change how i feel and is causing more stress cause i have other appointments. I hate my life im lonely cause no one believes i really want to die. This is all piling up on me so quickly and nothing and no one is really helping to ease my pain.I wish at this time i had someone to be close to.To just feel comforted by yet all i feel is sadness and fear