I Am Lonely
I am only 26 yet I feel like I'm stuck in a rut. When I here about people from work talking about their weekends and when I see people talking about things they have been up to on Facebook, it just makes feel completely depressed that I am stuck at home every single weekend doing nothing. My best friends have all settled down with kids already so they never want to do anything. I understand that they can't come out as often as they use to, but they never ever do anything anymore. I'm literally stuck at home every single weekend, either online or watching DVDs. It wouldn't be so bad if I had a girlfriend. Either one would make me happy. Whether I had friends to meet up with at the weekend or a girl, as long as I got out of the house. But I can't even find a girlfriend. Being stuck at home all the time is hardly the best way to find a girl. It gets me down how I see so many people get girlfriends so easily. A friend of mine from schooled has been married already. He has divorced his wife and has found a new girlfriend already. I haven't even had a real date in so long. The only girls I meet are ones from work and all of them have boyfriends. I get some girls who show interest from me, but they all have boyfriends. Ultimately, they flirt a bit but never make any hint that they would leave their boyfriends. I have tried online dating as well, as I have heard so many people have found someone in that way, but I even have no luck with that. I am registered on many sites and I never ever get a reply when I try to contact a lady. It really shoots down my confidence that I can't even find a girlfriend online. It has gotten to the point where I get jealous of other people in relationships. I can't even watch TV Shows like Take Me Out or anything that shows good looking men getting a beautiful lady because it just reminds me how I could never get girls the way these guys do. And I'm a realist, I know I won't get the stunning kind of girls you see on TV, but just a nice decent girl who is right for me. I feel like such a loser in the eyes of my family, seeing as both my brother and my sister are in serious relationships. My parents must be wondering why I don't have a girlfriend. Me and my friends used to hit the town every weekend and live it up and I thought we would at least until we were 30 before we all started to settle down and it makes me feel horrible that I somewhat resent them for it, when deep down I do feel happy for them. But I just don't how much longer I can stand being on my own and doing nothing every single weekend. If I had a girlfriend, it wouldn't be too bad, just as long as I had some company. I few months ago, my friend asked me to help him move house and I was so excited to do it because it meant I could see him and it gave me something to do. I'm so desperate to get out there and meet new friends or find a girl or do something because I can't stand being lonely every weekend.
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