My name is Brandon. My real dad abandoned my when I was three. My step dad abused me and my family for 7 years, almost killing me a couple of times. I held it all in and was always the strong one, but took it out on myself by cutting from the time I was twelve years old and on. I started dating a lot, but my ex I was off and on with for 6 years and she cheated on me numerous times. We finally broke up and I attempted to commit suicide and was in the hospital for two weeks. I was diagnosed with depression, ptsd, anxiety and I've just been struggling since to stay alive. I live at my college dorms so i have no family or friends near me and i am sad and lonely and just trying to find reasons to survive one day at a time... any advice or anybody caring would be greatly appreciated..