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I Am Lonely

Lonely Forever

By: username64
Written on February 13th, 2013
i think i have been lonely for as long as i can remember, and even more so this past few years. maybe the age? at my age marriage is the next thing on everyone's to-do list, if they havent already.

i have been trying to find someone for myself forever but theres always something that made it fail. maybe i give off negative vibe? i dont know. but i get along really well with everyone i just met and i have a lot of friends and im still good friends with friends i know since i was 8, 9 years old. but most of those friends now are married, if not in a relationship. my friends tell me im pretty. when i was in school and uni, most of my friends didnt even believe me when i told them im single and never had a boyfriend. and when they finally believed me, they were so sure i would meet someone soon enough. obviously they cant foresee the future. but i knew they were wrong all along. so am i the psychic one? :p

i make it public on fb about my singlehood and how i hate it and how im just gonna end up a loser so no one will tell me the cliche 'oh you will find someone soon' because i really hate it. more than 10years doenst fall in the 'soon' category (let alone my whole life), so how "soon" do they think i will find that someone?

oh, but i think what i hate most is when people tell me that single is better. better than what, if single is the only life i know?! people only say that after a bad breakup before getting back in a relationship soon after. so....What is better again?

sigh...ok i think im babbling. im sure everyone knows what im getting at. writing as many as 10000 words about the same thing doenst make people understand more and it surely wont make anything change.

so..thank you for your time everyone. and thanks for reading.
By: username64
Age: 26-30
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    MrJax
    MrJax

    Well if I'm lonely I usually can't sleep, so what I do is take a walk. I live in a very small town where, at night, there are usually very few to no clouds. We have a little hill to the west which has a beautiful view over the town, I go there to enjoy the moonlight and the stars. It's like drifting into a different world, where I can be free of the judging looks other people throw at me because of my photophobia. It releases my soul of pain and it helps me gain confidence I wouldn't have otherwise. I believe that you can find a place like that too, and once you do. It'll help you find who your heart desires the most. Take this someone and show them that you love them, by taking them to your special place.

    Feb 16
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      username64
      username64

      i wish i lived in a place like that.
      but even if i did, i wouldnt get to find who my heart desires that easy :(

      Feb 16
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    redtailhawk
    redtailhawk

    Loneliness is a really difficult to deal with. I would take off in the car, thinking I'd go to Reno, and I kept thinking as I was driving, what am I doing this for? I don't know anyone there. I would probably be sadder being alone there than at home, so I turned around and went back home. A drive of a few hours that didn't go anywhere!!! Just an example of me trying to deal with loneliness. Anyway to much yakking on my part..lol

    Feb 16
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      username64
      username64

      yeah most times i feel that way too. to just drive off somewhere (or even fly off somewhere) thinking i could get away from the loneliness. but i never did. maybe i was scared to do it. because bad people are everywhere. i'd really be lonely than get killed! :p

      Feb 16
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    Merinder
    Merinder

    "Better than what?" For example better than being in a relationship full of hate. At least that's how I feel at the moment.

    Agreed, if I was on my own, it would be loneliness again. Painful loneliness, I can tell from earlier years. In fact, I can relate to your story very well. Thanks for sharing.

    Feb 14
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