I Don'T Want This Life Anymore.

I once had a lot of friends, But now i only have myself. I feel like a total loser. I feel like a complete jerk. Everyone left me. I live in a total different area then my friends and school. I had Best friends, but they all drifited away from me. I would walk up to them and i would say hey guys! They give me the " we are have a secret meeting" thing. Even the guy that likes me doesn't even want to hang out. No body wants to hang out with me.
It started losing all my Best friends, they all floated away. I have mad mistakes but I am really wondering if those will haunt me for the rest of my life, the biggest problem is that there's a Queen Bee and I had sometimes a fight with one of her followers so..yeah now nobody wants to be friends with me anymore because the Queen gossips all bad things about me, she once was my best friend. they say that i post my whole journal on facebook, that's not true and then there's one of her puppets that says on facebook: "posting your problems here, won't fix them, you only make it worse :D" with smileys,..that only make me feel more miserable..