I Just Moved Across Country... and Now I Feel Lost and Alone
Well, I just got married to a Marine. I'm so happy that I did, even though we're both under 21. I guess we've just been apart so long, he has 7 months left in Pensacola for his MOS (Military Occupational Specialty) School. And after he finished boot camp, and MCT (Marine Combat Training) we just, we didn't want to be apart anymore. So we got married, and I moved from MN to FL.
Florida's gorgeous so there are no complaints there. And when my hubby's home, and we're spending time together, I'm fine. I'm happy as can be. But since he's in the Marines and still in school, he's in class from 2pm to 10pm, and on days where he has PT (physical training) which is 3 out of 5 days, well then he's gone from 11am to 10 pm.
I guess when I moved down here I thought we'd be together, but I forgot that being here doesn't change what he has to do as a Marine. I guess it's harder because for one, I don't have my license, so getting around and meeting people, seems impossible. So I'm working on getting over my tiny fear of driving so that way I can get a license and maybe go out and meet people.
But I guess because I have kinda a low self-esteem, just about my physical self, it's made me a little shy. So I dunno what to do. But I'm tired of feeling so alone. When I was in MN I had such a close group of friends, but now that I got married and left, they're all too busy to even talk on the phone, they're all with each other.
I'm just stressed about the lonely thing because my husbands on base 5 out of 7 days a week, he sleeps in and then goes to bed soon after I make dinner when he gets home. Then weekends, he just wants to crash and sleep the whole weekend away.
I want to get out, and meet people. And have my time occupied. I'm tired of feeling trapped and bored in this empty house.
Love fills up the house, but that's only when he's home. *sigh* :(