I Am Guilty

I am lonely because I am a good person who does bad things.  I am mean to my friends, hate my boyfriend and my parents.  I am impatient, unkind, uncaring and not compassionate.  I am selfish, love money, and want love, but I suck at keeping people around.  My mom told me she wanted to give me up to foster parents. Isnt that nice?  *****.

contikilove contikilove
22-25
4 Responses Feb 10, 2009

You remind me of some one I know. She does the same thing. The only advice I could give is open your eyes. You may have some one there trying to be there for you but you refuse to see it. Then again I could be completely wrong and the people around you could be just that ******. If thats the case then I feel really bad for you.

Well...I keep telling myself its other people that SUCK time and time again and I am the victim of ****** friends and bad relationships. Bad relationships, maybe. But friends shouldnt come and go as often as they do in my life :( I guess the answer would be that I have to change myself. But then I tell myself that Im self loathing, which isnt the case. I dont hate myself. I hate everyone else! There go the vicisous circle of thinking that I have to change and then realizing i dont WANT to.

I sometimes feel the same way. . . Correction, not sometimes, MOST of the time. But in my heart I know what I need to do to correct this, I just don't have the courage to do it. So the question I want to ask you is, what do you know in your heart that you need to do?

no thats not very nice. just work on your personality!