All By Myself!

It's strange how you can be in a room filled with people yet still feel all alone. I have a pretty good support network, if I do say so myself. Yet there are times where I feel like I am all by myself. I want to be happy but sometimes, correction most of the time I don't feel like I deserve it. I am a mother of two wonderful children, a daughter and a sister, but I still feel like there is something missing. Maybe that's why I feel alone and lonely, maybe I feel different to everyone else. I am afraid all the time and fear makes me do strange things, maybe I am a freak?

bufy1981 bufy1981
26-30, F
2 Responses Feb 11, 2009

well i think some time memories make us feel alone even if we are in lots of people .. and some time we make our mind on base of our perceptions so try to involve in people rather isolated yourself and try to know and discuss and share with all do not hide and keep things inside you its always hurt.. and be brave life is like that...<br />
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Regards

I understand the lonliness and the feelings you are having and they are completely normal. I agree with chngiscoming that we all feel the need to share our lives with friends and/or a lover and when we don't have that there's like a big emptiness inside and nothing ever seems to go right or feel right. We've been hurt and trust is an issue with whether we will ever feel in love or be loved wholeheartedly again. Or at least that's where I am at. <BR>You are not a freak...you are human. And we sometimes get hurt. Bad.