I Cant and Dont Want to Relate to Anyone

when i was little i moved alot.

the last time i moved i didnt really make friends until the last year or two i was living at home.   even then i felt thoes friends didnt rreally like me. befor i left for college i was anxious about meeting new ppl. and i had this idea in my head that i was to be a completly new person and have awesome new friends.

it is harder to make friends than i thought.  i only have a few including my room mate who i think hates me.  i dont drink or go to parties.  during the weekends i spend my time in my room reading, doing homework, drawing and other activites that occupy my time.  at night i can hear the people in their rooms and it sounds like they are having fun.  at the beging of the year i was really depressed and most nights cried myslef to sleep hoping my room mate didnt hear. 

now i think im better. i dont cry as much. now i think i have come to accept my solitude and i kinda chose to be alone. 

i have put in a transfer to another university close to D.C. i dont know if this will help me, but i dont think it would be good for me to stay. 

 

iamsopissedoff iamsopissedoff
18-21, F
1 Response Feb 24, 2009

YOU GOT FREE WILL.... LEAVE YOUR ROOM AND JOIN IN LIFE...LIFE IS JUST A STREAM OF TIME ITS WHAT YOU DO WITH THAT TIME AND YOUR JUST KILLING TIME.