Across An Ocean

I moved to England to study here on exchange for 5 months. I left my family, my friends and my boyfriend behind in Canada.

I walked into a room with stained walls that reaked of tobacco. 5 months in this stupid room. No one really talks to me here. British people seem to stay to themselves. I just sit in my room everyday, alone. I have never loved a man the way I love my boyfriend, but he told me he needs time to think today. I dont feel wanted anymore. Just alone and hurt. And pathetic really. I just read back this entry. Oy!!!

findingthesun findingthesun
18-21
3 Responses Feb 25, 2009

Loneliness could be a killing thing specially when u look around and find ur self in and empty room, just u thinking of those u love to know suddenly that they don't even have the least idea of what ur passing throw.<br />
But on the other side it teaches us who really cares and who we could really go to and make us think of our huge ability in almost every thing.<br />
The most important thing is that don't give ur self time to think in any thing that will bring u down try to do new stuff and new places and I wish u all the best in ur study and life <br />
take good care of urself there :)

*Hugs* :)<br />
Oh dear, do not worry...everything will be alright..you're feeling homesick...You need to go out and socialise...Join various clubs to make new friends...Smile to life and above all, be optimistic...I'll end by quoting Christopher Mc Candles:<br />
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"Some people feel like they don't deserve love. They walk away quietly into empty spaces, trying to close the gaps of the past. Happiness is only real when shared"<br />
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Good luck :)

Firstly , wanna say welcome to England! The way of life here can be truly depressing. A friend of mine from Canada as well felt the same way, after a year here , they had to relocate back . Maybe it's just the weather. During the summer time people tend to be more chatty. I still think it's a lonely country. <br />
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Regarding your bf, it's funny I had to split with my ex girlfriend in "similar circumstance". Can't seem to understand the logic behind leaving some one "you love" to travel round the world.