I feel this constant emptiness. I'm reminded of it when I'm alone and left to think about everything. Sometimes it's just nice to have someone to talk to.
Mannz Mannz
18-21, F
5 Responses Aug 15, 2014

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There are many different kinds of "emptiness".

There is the emptiness of unfulfillment, which can itself fall under many analytical headings.

There is the emptiness of a lack of companionship -- not merely the presence of another person, but a missing person in whom we feel we could confide on myriad levels, open to be ourselves without fear of reproach or caustic judgment.

There is the emptiness which comes from a lack of romantic love in our lives -- surprisingly (for more than most realize) linked with the lack of companionship mentioned above.

There is even the emptiness of simply not knowing what seems to be missing from our lives, a vacuum felt but indescribable, almost imperceptible.

What most of it boils down to is a seeming lack of permission to BE OURSELVES. I don't mean some sort of laissez-faire of the moral and the spiritual, resulting in what amounts to a kind of amoral chaos and anarchy; rather, our fear born of so many different sources stops us from being and doing what would feel so natural if only we could let go.

The saddest part is that were we to let go and become ourselves, so many of those other emptinesses would fill up of their own accord.

There's an old saying:

When you know who you are, you will know what to do. It's true in so many ways.

Sometimes a person just wants a damned hug, and they want to be secure in the knowledge they won't be seen as weak for wanting that simple hug.

Wow spot on!

How have I only just seen this!?

I know what that's like. I've been going through really hard things and can't count on my husband to be there for me. I try to reach out to people I can confide in but I can tell that maybe they don't want to be the ones I always confide in

u can always hit me up

I'm sorry. I really wish I could help. But I am not really an interesting person. Please do know I really feel for you and hope it all goes over soon.