I am alone in a world filled with people. I have a mask that protects me, saves me, from the criticism and judgments of others. I have a whole in me that reaches far beyond my heart. I feel as if I had escaped death but at a terrible cost...I have everything I want and need but still I am lonely. Apart of me has ran away with the Cinderella that left me at the ball... and in her absent I am only left with a fragile, beautiful, painful memory that is the only evidence that she truly exists. I have carried around this glass shoe in hope that it fits someone. But years have passed and no one has been able to fit it as comfortably as she once did.

I fear if even I am able to find the sole owner of this glass shoe, once she has it, she will never dance with me the same way she once did when we first met. I fear that I will be alone forever only existing and playing the role that is expected of me...

Without her I am a beast without the beauty to heal me and deliver me from this curse I have put upon myself. Her glass shoe will forever remain in my protective cylinder locked away in the highest room of my castle...

Every night I take my mask off along with my jacket, shoes, and clothing. I hang it up in my closet by the door. Then I prepare myself for the long walk to the abandon room. I reach the room after climbing the flights of stairs, the lefts and rights, and other distracting doors that hide my place of solitude...

I walk in an from the gaze of the moon the room is lit, just enough to make my way around the enormous room without tripping. I have deadly traps and snares that blocks the chair resting firmly across from the enclosed glass shoe...It takes me at least forty five minutes to reach my chair. Battered and bruised I make it...I always do...always will...

I sit. For the rest of the night I will sit till the sun rises, gazing at the shoe that she once wore as I have done since her disappearance...I am lonely! I will forever be lonely!
AlluringDarkness AlluringDarkness
22-25, M
2 Responses Aug 17, 2014

I wouldn't be able to write it better... I know it's terrible, but you described it the best possible way

Thank you, it is an experience that I have finally made public.

Not only does this describe where I am to a tee, but does so in a poetic and beautifully written way. Great post friend, I have a feeling I'll be coming back to it many nights.

Thank you!