Since 2004

I am lonely. It is now 3/1/09 & I have not had a good relationship since my Mom passed. My Mom was my best friend & we shared our experiences of every day life with one another. I didn't realize until she passed how blessed I was to have a give & take relationship that we shared, in addition to unconditional love. Although I was married for 17 years my partner was not interested in me or my life. Just in how he could use me. All the years were not bad, the first 10 were pretty good, then his alcoholism took over. I offered help in all ways I could think of. AA, 4 different therapists, 2 marriage counselors, doctors, etc...I have been living on my own for over a year now, taking care of a house, working full time & am thankful for all these things however there is no fulfillment & no one to share my day with. The Elvis song that says "I'm so lonely I could die" I can now relate to. I have joined night classes, on-line dating & a few other things to find myself right back to that place of being alone. Anyone have an ideas on how I can change my life I would appreciate hearing from you.

lonelytoolong lonelytoolong
56-60, F
4 Responses Mar 1, 2009

Just before I leave for now....<br />
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Here is perhaps something easier to get and enjoy:<br />
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mO-h1sPcsKQ&feature=related<br />
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Sorry , there is no special relevance to the subject matter, maybe even one may consider that to contrary. It may brighten the mood though in the some little way. <br />
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I came from "I love Mozart" group so there....

Hi lonlytoolong,Here I made the short MSPowerPoint Slide Show for you. Its called Bouquet of Hope, Friendship and Love. To cheer you up and to show that I care. It is available under this link:http://www.mediafire.com/?sharekey=60eac351df31917d4012e8015643d9c8ee58559bdcbabbbeI hope you have MS Power Point to view it. If not here is the link to free viewer. http://www.microsoft.com/downloads/details.aspx?FamilyId=428D5727-43AB-4F24-90B7-A94784AF71A4&displaylang=enIf all that too much trouble, or you maybe distrusting the download, let me know frankly and openly. I'd understand. Cannot make at the moment the video to upload at You Tube, but hopefully in the near future I may.That is all time for today I have. Be well and patient...TedZ

I know how you feel. My husband had the kinda relationship you had with your mother. I was very jealous of her and him. Which caused me to neglect him. When his mom died he didn't feel mhe could talk to me.He turned to another woman. Now I am left out and alone with three kids. I love him desperately and want him back but I don't know how. I don't think I have the will to make it alone.

This is the first story I have stumbled upon today on this page....<br />
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My Mom also died in 2004 and only then I had realized what she really meant for me and what a true and loving friend have I lost. My life is also affected, by tragedy of alcoholism of someone close. I have no answer how to change my life, as for me maybe there are no clear answers yet.<br />
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The only thing I can do for you is to make something nice and post that for you later on the net. <br />
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And so I hope that you would feel less alone, maybe still lonely, but at least not completely alone. <br />
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TedZ