I am terrified of dying alone. I joke about it with my friends, but deep down it hurts because I am positive it will happen. I feel as though girls have no interest in a guy like me and I'm too reserved, too much of a chicken to talk to the girls I like. I spent four years at college with a heart breaking crush on one beautiful girl I truly wanted to ask out. Now college is over and I will never see her again. I am surrounded by family and friends, but they don't understand me and I have become so distanced from everyone. I hide behind a plastic smile so as not to worry anyone, because it's not fair for me to put my feelings and burdens on others. I don't want to feel alone for the rest of my life. I don't want to be angry at myself anymore. I am becoming more and more of an empty shell as time moves on. I have no one to talk to, no one to listen. I'll listen to all of my friends and family, but no one to listen to me. I am alone..
Ahjussi Ahjussi
22-25, M
1 Response Aug 20, 2014

I know it sounds crazy but just find a girl you like and ask her out. Whats the worst that can happen? She says no? Oh well, move on to the next. BUT she could also say yes.

I know it's stupid and I'm an idiot I know. I have yet to meet anyone. I have tried, and I continue to try, and my life is too complicated at this moment to have any hope. I know I'm a fool, but it just hurts.