I Am Lonely

I am Lonely. Recently I have had some bad things happen to me and it feels like my life is starting to fall apart. I have always been a shy, introverted person around people I don't know well. I am a freshman in college and certain circumstances with my home life are forcing me to transfer back home. I am not upset because I don't feel like I have relationships like most people do in college. In the beginning of the semester I was always doing things with a big group of friends that I had. Then for some reasons that I'm not sure of I stopped hanging out with them. It's not that I didn't like them. Before I knew it they all thought I hated them. I'm not a confrontational person so i just ignored it and let them think that. As I started to pull away from them I started hanging out with a different group of friends. But I have kept myself distant. I know I'm creating my loneliness. It's not that I want it to be this way. I'm afraid to get close to people because they migh hurt me. Once i begin to feel a closeness, I detach myself. Now I am an 18 year old college student and don't have many real relationships in my life

meaghen meaghen
18-21, F
Mar 5, 2009