Dealing With the Loss of My Husband

My husband had gone back to driving truck ( cross country ). In the last year and a half I was able to see him about 10 times. Sometimes during those 10 times he was able to stay either 2 to 5 days through out the year. I was beginning to worry about his breathing, but he said it was nothing. My husband died New Years day at a Flying J truck stop in Twin Falls Idaho. he had been working his way back home to be here on my birthday !-7-09. I was so lonely before he died and now it is even worse. Oh Lord I miss him so much it hurts. I am trying to take care of our small ranch in Northern Idaho, take care of my handicapped brother and his wife. I have been under so much stress trying to deal with everything that a week ago last Thursday I had a heart attack and now going to have a heart catheter done on Monday the 9th. There are times I just feel like giving up. I know I need to down size the horses, down size the 50 acres. Sell it if possible with the economy like it is. I need something smaller that I can handle like 5 acres or something. I am 59 and feel like I'm drowning.  If something doesn't change soon I wont know what to do. I do realize you take one step at a time, one day at a time, and move on with my life. But right now I wander what life.

Cherylmarsh Cherylmarsh
56-60
1 Response Mar 7, 2009

Cheryl,<br />
I am so sorry for your loss and your health problems. I am praying that God will give you wisdom to make the right decisions for your life. Even if the world's economy is bad, God can send that right person to you to buy your land. Trust in Him, and He will make a way.<br />
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There is always hope for the future and help for today in prayer. <br />
elaine