A Destined Fate?

It's weird- I sometimes get the feeling that I was destined to be alone forever. That it is my fate. I always end up being isolated from society, and occasionally people will make up lies to turn others against me. I am confused- what am I doing wrong? Why am I always targeted? This feeling has caused me to become depressed and anorexic- and now I'm moving again, having to leave all my friends and even my two cats. But I know I can't let it get to me- I try to be as strong as I can, and if being alone forever is my fate, than so be it! It's difficult sometimes, when you feel like you have no one to go to or no one to love, but I know my friends really care for me and I can always count on them. I can count on my family, too(well, mostly!!). I hate to rant, but this is truley what I believe. I just know in my lonliest times I have to be strong.... as sappy as that sounds!!

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18-21, F
2 Responses Mar 9, 2009

I've been lonely too, and maybe it's a way of protecting yourself against hurt and the untrustworthyness of people. It's difficult out there when you're sensitive, but try to be strong. Maybe you're a bit depressed. Please consult somebody, that's the only way you'll know how to fight back the uncertainties. I also don't make friends easy and it's because I do not trust people.<br />
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People make mistakes and that is something you must always keep in mind. If somebody out there is nasty to you, remember they are the sandpaper and get used up and lands in the dustbin, you on the other hand is being polished. <br />
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Even when u don't feel like it do something that takes your mind off your loneliness, even if you talk to the doorman, or the owner of the shop or who ever you come accross. It helps. They, also, got their own problems and as soon as u start helping somebody else, by just listening, you'll feel better.<br />
I wish u all the best. Remember there is always somebody thinking of u.

I have wondered the same thing about myself! I can't seem to find many friends, it is just hard for me to make friends. I always tend to meet not very good genuine people. And with relationships too, I just can't find what I am looking for, and I don't understand why. I have been wondering like you, if maybe I am just meant to be alone? Boy is it hard. I have been pretty low lately being lonely.