Part II of First Date

On March 10th I wrote about having a date tonight. It has been a long while and I was very nervous about tonight. Read the story from March 10th if you want more details. Anyway, as I was getting ready to go tonight, I got a call from my date and she said she wasn't feeling well, and she would call me next week. I wish I could say that it didn't bother me, but right now I feel like I would be surprised if she calls. I'm so tired of this. I don't know why I even think about these things. I wish it didn't matter. I wish I didn't care!!! Here I am. Another Saturday night laying here with my lap top. I really need to get a life.

ESO145 ESO145
46-50, M
1 Response Mar 14, 2009

It's horrible to feel alone--I do all the time--truth be told-lived alone in a marriage of 30 years--did so much by myself that the "x" was referred to as the phantom husband--it's all okay now--moving on and growing--am I lonely--yes I am-I keep myself busy to fill that void--I'm a very outgoing woman--so it's very easy for me to talk with people--do I sit in bars--absolutely not--I find things to do that are enjoyable to me--walking, hikes, riding bike, swimming--just enjoying--going to see my grandson--pure simple pleasures--do I want somone in my life--oh yes I do.<br />
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Best wishes to you.