For the first time in 17 years I didn't start school again on Monday. I graduated two weeks ago Saturday. What was supposed to be the happiest day of my life has ended up being one of the saddest. My entire life, especially the past five years of college, has centered upon my education. My excuse for not getting close to people or ever having a meaningful relationship with the opposite sex has been that my education was my number one priority. Now that I have achieved that, I have nothing.
I"m trying to become an officer in the Navy but I won't know anything for another 2 months. In the meantime I have truly realized how alone I really am. My cat is the only thing that depends on me, and thank god for him.
All of my friends are either in their careers, still in school, or back home. I have drank a bottle of wine nearly every night for the past two weeks because I have nothing ese to do. Even now, as I opened up a beer after finishing my bottle of wine, I look around at the emptiness that is my life. I know my life will change when I join the navy, but that wont happen for another six months at least. I'm 23, I've never had a serious relationship, and I'm so lonely every day that I've begun to talk to my best friend who died 6 and half years ago.