I don't know what to do with myself..
i feel so alone..im no longer friends with everyone i used to be friends with, and when i try to talk to them they kinda just wave me off. my best friend is too busy partying with her boyfriend and all of his friends so i now have no one...my sister is in college and is having to much fun and i dont want to bring anyone down with my problems.
i have contemplated suicide multiple times but i have neither the courage nor the resources to do it, plus i'm just not selfish enough to put my family through that kind of pain. but lately i'm feeling like it's the only way out, with the lack of friends and huge workload that's been placed on me this year. I'm young-I've got my whole life ahead of me...but somehow i can't even imagine myself making it to university.