I Need Friends

Most of my life has been lonely. It has always been difficult to make friends because of fear of rejection, trust, shyness, being hurt. These things make me very wary of forging friendships. I have been to many support groups, been in therapy for this and other reasons. I have tools and ideas to forge new friendships but these things only help me so far & then I find I hit a brick wall & retreat.

I really want to get out of this life long rut, but just can't seem to do it. What's wrong with me? :(

olderwiser2009 olderwiser2009
41-45, F
3 Responses Feb 17, 2010

I do not think there is anything wrong with you! <br />
I suspect you are like me in that you are an observer and like to take everthing in before you trust someone. And let's face it, being genuine is such a rariety with superficial BS leading the way!<br />
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When you have been hurt, it is simply an act of self-preservation to be cautious with others. Your words for me have never been less than thoughtful and kind, so I think you are fine. Are you shy? Sure. Are you messed up? I thnk not. But that is just my opinion. :)

I find I can't open up and talk to people either. A lot of it is to do with moving away and then suddenly having to move back to my old life and everyone else has moved on.

I don't know if there is anything necessarily wrong with you. Sometimes people have tons of friends and they are still lonely because they can't talk to them about anything due to their own insecurities. You could just be the type that is particular about who you let in due to your trust issues. I'm sure if the right person came by, you would be fine making friends with them.