I Am At My Wits End. How Many Tears Are Left?

I'm so tired of being lonely and I feel like no meaningful relationship opportunity is even on the horizon. I have a successful career, my own home and all the indicia of a successful life. Yet, I have no one to share my life with.
I talk to God...a lot. Does He hear me? I cry and scream at Him sometimes too. Real talk. Then I stop and sit silently in my home alone and just feel like an idiot. Who cares? No one.
Why live this life with so much to share and no one to share it with?

I eat but food has no taste; I lay in bed but sleep eludes me; I smile and greet others at work but I am just a hollow clown.
HollowClown HollowClown
36-40, F
2 Responses Feb 23, 2010

Thanks for the comments! <br />
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@ MbaliK, I do act...always. I referenced those "private" times at home alone with God. Everyday, I face the world...on the train, at work, in the lunch spots nearby, at the bookstore etc etc etc. I'm ALWAYS ACTING, ALWAYS GOING, ALWAYS SMILING & SAYING "Hello..."<br />
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Apparently, it's just my time to be lonely. It's like God trying to make sure I focus on Him. Besides, I am no more special than the next and He has given me so much else........ Why complain about loneliness? I should just "suck it up" and stop this girly whining...... I guess.

true that Afreshstart77 keep talking HollowClown and know that the Lord is there always & his listening & sooner than you expect he will be answering your prayers. I was felling very lonely before i joined EP, BUT now i'm a different person i have a life. Remember if you want things to happen you have to make them don't just talk, act as well.