Loneliness

I sit here in time and space: I am so lonely.  My very existence means that I will never find another.  I know only loneliness.  What can I do to occupy my mind?  To forget how lonely I am?

I am not doomed in the sense of survival, of existence, only that I am doomed to be eternally lonely.  Is it worse then?  To me it is; just because.  Because of my existence I know what I can and cannot be.  To some I would have no problem at all; but I have loneliness above all things:  I can never escape that.

I befriend some to keep company with me for a while, I can play in their lives wanting to be whole with them; I try to become one with them, but I know the truth of what is to be.

risenphoenix risenphoenix
70+, M
3 Responses Feb 24, 2010

wicked...The loneliness comes and goes. The person that I've met on line takes away so very much of it. She is so understanding and the connection that we have is marvelous. The hardest part is not having the touching and the intimacy that I so need and cherish.<br />
<br />
Takes Two<br />
<br />
The whole world goes marching<br />
two by two.<br />
And I alone<br />
am wondering<br />
Where the other half of me is.

Do you still feel this way.....I read your story about meeting someone on line, you sound happy, are you? or are you still lonely? I hope not, but I can understand the feeling. I myself feel a strong sense of loneliness despite having so many people around me that love me. It can be consuming at times but I just keep telling myself 'life is good and I will find what I seek, it just may take some time'. Which I believe will only make me cherish what I seek more!!

Thanks 13. Here is another muse to consider.<br />
<br />
The whole world goes marching<br />
two by two.<br />
And I, alone<br />
am wondering<br />
where the other half of me is.