The Hurt Is Almost Unbearable

I tell you I am lonely, you say "come sit by me." I say there is more to it than just sitting next to someone. I say I feel as though I have a big black pit from the loneliness. You say nothing.

Do you understand??? I long to be held, touched, kissed, loved.

You have your friends and family that you see ALL the time. You go fishing, you go hang out at the club.

I go to work.

Your friends and family have you.

I don't.

I don't have friends.

My parents are gone. The rest of my family has no time.

Most of the time I don't even rate a phone call.

I cry.

I cry all the time.

You, the one who should help me to feel safe and secure, help to make me feel lonely, scared, unwanted, vulnerable.

I have never felt so lonely, so insecure.

We are engaged, shouldn't you love me as I love you?

But will we ever get married?

Will you ever love me, really love me? Will you ever desire me, make love to me? Want me?

rita29e rita29e
46-50, F
Feb 25, 2010