I Am A Lonely Mom

I have a 5 month old baby, a dog, and no friends. Actually, my dog is my best friend. My only contact to the outside world is from my husband and my parents. I have had the most tumultuous relationship with my husband. We are both young, stubborn and say really mean things to each other when we are mad. I used to smoke weed and drink a lot but since I got pregnant I stopped all that. My husband hasn't stopped and I am really getting sick of it. We fight about everything all the time, we can't even have a normal conversation with out it turning into a fight. We haven't slept in the same bed for 2 weeks, he says he prefers the couch and doesn't want to come near me. I live where it is cold in the winter and I hardly get to go outside because it is snowy here now, my husband works all day, and I have no one to watch my son even for a half hour to go outside for a walk. My son is the only truely great thing I have ever done and I am beginning to feel so isolated and depressed. I wish I could just magically run away from this place, just my son and my dog and me. But I have no job, I have no money, and I am scared to raise my baby alone (not that my husband has been much help lately anyways). I never have anyone to talk to and I just wish I could have just ONE friend. I am a good person, I really am. I am a great mother, I truely believe that I am so good to my little man. I wish I could be a carreer mom, I wish I could make my own money and support myself and had a real future. I wish my husband would listen to me. I wish he would stop getting high....I need someone to love me.

Isabellla Isabellla
26-30, F
1 Response Feb 25, 2010

Try this on for size...Remember to treat others the way you wish to be treated. Then start practicing some real deep self-Love. ( From the inside out) You have the Breath of Life and Love inside you - like we all do. Remember to Love, Protect and Share it with & for yourself & others. Also do the same for the Temple it resides in..Tour Body... Once you can do this the universe will forgive your transgressions. Your life will take on better choices. Your Creator has things in control more than you think.<br />
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LOVE & HUGS, livingwell